Feb 10, 2019

Each time I thought about shaving my head I thought about how sad I would feel seeing myself after. I’d been putting on a brave face, but when it came down to it, I was feeling really upset that my hair was going to go. Many suggested I wait to cut it, or ease into it, which I almost did last night. But, honestly, I just didn’t want being bald to be one more thing to stress about and I knew it would be better to get it over and done. As I sat there watching my hair go shorter and shorter, I felt better and better. I started giggling. My anxiety released, I relaxed, and I felt like I was looking at myself for the first time. It was an odd sensation to be surprised that I was still me, just bald and now feeling more beautiful than I could have hoped. I feel brave and I feel ready to get started on treatment tomorrow. It’s really incredible how beautiful being seen and loved can make you feel.