Apr 15, 2019
It’s Monday, infusion day, and I really didn’t want to face it. It was an effort of growing in self-control- getting up, putting my feet on the floor, getting ready, and going to get that infusion. What I really wanted to do was book a flight to the nearest warm soft sand beach. It takes discipline and courage to honor our commitments and our goals. In the end, I want to be healthy and to live a long full happy life with my sweet loves on this earth. I want to see my future unfold and I want to give my dreams life by doing what I can to pass the blessings I’ve received on along to others- To live in Love. Shooting off to Miami isn’t the next step on the course to showing up and achieving those important goals. The infusion, however, is.
I read a caption this morning that really inspired me. I’ll share the sentiment in my own words. If you’re facing something challenging or standing before a mountain, or if you even just had a case of the Mondays, I just want to tell you you’ve friggn got this. Pursuing your dreams and a life of love isn’t easy. There will continually be challenges you face, sometimes unimaginably big. Embrace this and feel it. Persevering through the challenges and coming out on top is an incredible feeling. It’s worth the effort of continuing, no matter how hard it may seem. If you don’t have a support system, you should find one. Open yourself up and you’ll start to find your people. People who will care for you, listen to you, encourage you, make you feel yourself, and pray for you. These things are so important.
Someone you might not expect will have the words you need to hear or the ability to carry an emotion for a time when you no longer can. We aren’t built to go it alone. Trust God, even in faithlessness or uncertainty, and the various ways God can speak to us. Trust in the voices that propel your goals and tell you- you can do it, be faithful! Let these people care for you, and be a person who can accept care and listen to truth. You’ve got what it takes to keep going and fighting for life.
I get a lot of messages of people calling themselves strangers, but I don’t feel that way. These posts are personal and they sort of pour out of me. The gift of sharing with so many gracious and supportive folks, it’s astounding really! This social space is new and still unusual in many ways. I think it’s greatest value is allowing a group of people who may not have otherwise met support each other in the midst of promotions and ads. I can say confidently I have been supported here. “Strangers” have given me love and hope when I didn’t feel it. When the only voices I could hear were the negative ones, the strongest voice most often my own, or the voices of some closest to me. Adding positive support started to drown out the negative voices. Simply talking and have someone graciously hear you can be powerful enough on its own. There’s got to be a different word for that than strangers. :) IG is a delicate web of interaction, with hopefully a glimmer of good working to drown out the darkness.
So, on this Monday that also happens to be chemo day and tax day, a day where we often stressfully quantify a years worth of effort into numbers and items on a piece of paper, let’s remember the intangible value we are to one another and the impact that anyone can have in another’s life. Remember the words spoken to you that have said you can do it and you have inherent value. Those words are the ones that are true. If you don’t ever recall hearing something like that, let this unusually preachy bit of text be my words to you- You matter, you non-strangers.