Jan 5, 2019

Keeping a spot warm is not the same as rest, something we should all know better. Slowing ourselves down and trying to follow the doctor's orders, but I find myself either fidgeting with my phone, messages, Netflix, a book, work, the list of things I want to do- continuously in this loop in my mind while keeping still. Do you do the same when you are “resting?”

Each day another day is added to the recent calendar, it becomes more apparent that rest has been illusive. And yet, as keeping still, the need for rest echos around louder. What makes it so hard to resign, even if only for a season? I’m confident rest will come to be our closest friend in this, but right now it feels uninvited. We have a DIY list on this house that is roughly 86 miles long, and titanic-sized dreams. We had a calendar of 8 weeks of travel booked, starting next week, that would have taken us non-stop to Maui for 2 weeks, Vietnam for 4 weeks, and Tokyo for a week- and now we sit here being told to rest. This is hard. We need to loosen up. We need to let go. I guess it’s good we’ve got a knack for wanting to learn hard things.